life...

I am starting a bible study tomorrow and I am very nervous. It is through DOK. The name of the study is "I'm not good enough and the other lies women tell them selves." I am nervous because of what I think it will show me about myself. But on the other hand I am excited for this new step in my life. I am tryng to only say and think positive. So I can plant good seed in stead of bad ones. It is hard but I am tryng hard to make this a life style change for me.
Sloan is star of the week this week and I am so proud of him! He is turning into a beautiful and energetic little boy! I am so glad that I get to spend my mornings with him. He is so full of life and never fails to make me laugh!
Savanah is tring out for the basketball team at school and I am praying that she makes the team. I know it will be hard work but I feel it will really boost her self esteem!
Sethy has a science test this week. We have already starting studying as science is not one of his better subj. He has this class with his regular teacher so that is why it is more difficult for him. He also has Social studies with her and we are having difficulties in that class as well but the issues have been addressed and I am hoping that he will start to pull his grades up in these classes.
I am going to work tonight...I love going to work at FW because I get to go by myself.

Life

New start...
my life 9 months later..

The kids just got there report cards and Savanah did a great job on hers she got 4B's,1A and a D in math can you believe it math of all subjects. But I will say she is trying to pull it up. Sloan got all good grades but really how bad can you do in Kindergarten. Seth did ok. He is really struggling with school this year it is getting harder for him as it should BUT I guess I should have worked with him more this summer to keep him up to his level. Mike is still at Ferguson and I am work at Fitness World one night a week and Crossroads one night a week. I am also subbing for first christian and Crossroads!

Bill collectors!

I have had an OK week for the most part. We had to get ride of some things and down grade some others. But all in all it has turned out OK. WE only had enough money for a week of grouches and we have 2 weeks till the next paycheck so we r trying to make things stretch for another week...It is hard but I know we can do it. It has been so hard living paycheck to paycheck. We have even had to go with out power for a night because we could not pay the bill. That was hard.! But, we all made it. It is so frustrating having bill collectors call u at all hours and know u don't have a penny to your name let alone to give them.~ We don't really have a lot of bills it is just that we were living on Mikes over time and now he is not getting it and it is making thing VERY tight. It also made Christmas very hard! That was really hard for me.~ It is so hard for me to get to a place where I can make every penny stretch out.
~Living paycheck to paycheck is not hard we have done that a lot but it has never been so tight. We used to have a little left over to go out to eat with or buy a little extra at the store!~ but now we r doing good to get what we need....I know what you are thinking~ Everyone is having money issues now. I know that a lot of people are money issues and I really feel for them I know how hard it is for us and we have a house cars power and water. How hard it would be if we didn't...and there are people out there who have lost these luxuries. I know it sounds like I am complaining and I truly am not I guess I am just venting....and saying that I am thankful for what we do have....I just pray that God will help us get through~ I know HE will work it all out in HIS time....

Life

I just have one question for you all?~ Why in heavens name does life have to be so very very hard!

....Working.....

I really don't think I was ever supposed to work a 40 hour work week. The last 4 months have been the hardest 4 months of my life! Having my kids leave for school with out me and then not being here when they get home...UGH that is hard. I know that people do it everyday but not me. I have always been home when they leave and get home. Also I really didn't like my job. I guess it was OK I did not love it like I thought I would.~ and after my evaluation which I did very poorly on I decided that during Christmas break I was going to "look" for another job. Not that I thought I would find one but, none the less I would put my application in and hope and pray that someone would want me!~ Then the Tuesday before Christmas I went to Walmart to get some food and I ran into someone who works out at fitness world and she said they had hired someone for the nursery. I thought to myself ugh I could have worked there during the day again! Then another one of my friends that works at fitness world called because her son wanted to play with Seth and Sloan. She told me how they still need someone for the nursery and that I should go talk to Alicia. So I did and guess what I am working at fitness world again.! No it is not a GREAT new job but I know what is expected of me and they are good at working with me when scheduling me. I am getting 30 hours and that is great I will be making what I made a crossroads because I don't have to pay for Sloan to go with me. That is a BIG PLUS!
I worked last night in the nursery and it felt really good to be back. I had been there for 4 years before I quit to take my other job. I didn't think I would go back but it is nice to have some place that will take you back...
I think I will just stay at fitness world for the rest of my work life. Yes I am sure I will get burned out on it but who doesn't get burned out on work. No I will not be able to take the summer off but really if I had to spend all summer at home with the kids I would go CRAZY....Really, I think I would. I believe that I will be happy over all at FW. Although, I will miss the people I worked with at crossroads, I think it is really for the best.And the best thing is I will only be gone 1 afternoon a week. SO, I can be here for my kids and see them more!

2008...WHAT A YEAR

In 2008 we sold are house,moved,Mike and I both got new jobs,the kids started new schools,Sloan played soccer,Savy went on her first overnight retreat,Seth upped his reading leave,Sloan learned his alphabet, Savy got a new sister,I reconnected with people I would never here from again (THANKS FACE BOOK) we met Berkly, Michael got a raise, Savanah got braces,Seth got Fuji,Sloan stopped wetting the bed at night,Sloan wore tennis shoes,we got Nate, I am sure there are more exciting thing that we did in 2008 but as I put it behind me I just thought it would be nice to remember so of them...
It was a very eventfully year for us and with all its ups and downs we still love each other. I am very thankful that I have been blessed with such a great family!
I hope that all who read this have a great 2009!~

Hair.....UGG will I ever be happy?

Ok This is how I want my hair....I want the front sides below my ears but over all this is it! I love this hair cut and I think I would be happy with it! Any comments??? I want some one to comment PLEASE!!!!