Just another Tuesday...

Took Sloan to the dentist today and they caped his tooth. You can't even tell anything happened to it...I do glad! I also called the doctor an gain because I'm still not fellin any better...she is going to call in a Z pack and mike is going to get it when he gets off...I pray that this is going to help me feel better!!! Sloan won his basketball game last night 22-15 I'm so proud if what a great little man he is becoming. I can't wait for Seth to get home and tell me all about the what the band man said today...he thinks he might want to do band in middle school. We also have a meeting on Thursday night at the middle school. I can not believe how my kids r grow...way to fast! One in high school and now next year one in middle school...I will have one at all three schools!- boy does time fly when u r older.

Sloan had a basket ball game this morning at 9. He won!!:) I don't remember what the score was...sorry! His team has only lost one game :) Mike Seth Sloan and I went to seats after the game to get Mike some jeans all of his other ones had wholes in them and the wholes were really getting big so he could not ware them to work anymore- we then went and got a bit to eat and went to Aldis and Walmart. I can't believe we were gone till 3. Bit the day flew by...I keep telling myself since I have meds now I am feeling better but I just don't know if I really am?- I'm really tring to feel better...tomorrow I am just going to church and to rest so hopefully by Monday I will b feeling better. I am so excited I am work Wednesday:0) I'm subbing at DOK at crossroads. So the only day this week I'm not working is Friday. I really enjoy having Fridays off. It's my day to do rest or do whatever I want.

2012

I guess I will just jump in since it has been so long since my last blog... Savanah started high school and boy is that different. Seth is in 5th grade and in all regular class except for math. He also started medican to help him focus and it really seems to be working. Sloan is in second grade and he is a very bright boy. He loves football and basketball and can not wait to play football again. Mike is working at ferguson it is a pluming supply place. He is a driver fe them. I am working at crossroads doing MMO and I am a sun for DOK and I also started working with a friend who has a home daycare. I am hoping that I will be working there more as time passes and she gets more kids. Over all my life is pretty good - no we don't have a lot of extra money to spend but...mike and I do have jobs and we have cars and a home. Witch a lot of people don't have. I just pray that life gets better...

life...

I am starting a bible study tomorrow and I am very nervous. It is through DOK. The name of the study is "I'm not good enough and the other lies women tell them selves." I am nervous because of what I think it will show me about myself. But on the other hand I am excited for this new step in my life. I am tryng to only say and think positive. So I can plant good seed in stead of bad ones. It is hard but I am tryng hard to make this a life style change for me.
Sloan is star of the week this week and I am so proud of him! He is turning into a beautiful and energetic little boy! I am so glad that I get to spend my mornings with him. He is so full of life and never fails to make me laugh!
Savanah is tring out for the basketball team at school and I am praying that she makes the team. I know it will be hard work but I feel it will really boost her self esteem!
Sethy has a science test this week. We have already starting studying as science is not one of his better subj. He has this class with his regular teacher so that is why it is more difficult for him. He also has Social studies with her and we are having difficulties in that class as well but the issues have been addressed and I am hoping that he will start to pull his grades up in these classes.
I am going to work tonight...I love going to work at FW because I get to go by myself.

Life

New start...
my life 9 months later..

The kids just got there report cards and Savanah did a great job on hers she got 4B's,1A and a D in math can you believe it math of all subjects. But I will say she is trying to pull it up. Sloan got all good grades but really how bad can you do in Kindergarten. Seth did ok. He is really struggling with school this year it is getting harder for him as it should BUT I guess I should have worked with him more this summer to keep him up to his level. Mike is still at Ferguson and I am work at Fitness World one night a week and Crossroads one night a week. I am also subbing for first christian and Crossroads!

Bill collectors!

I have had an OK week for the most part. We had to get ride of some things and down grade some others. But all in all it has turned out OK. WE only had enough money for a week of grouches and we have 2 weeks till the next paycheck so we r trying to make things stretch for another week...It is hard but I know we can do it. It has been so hard living paycheck to paycheck. We have even had to go with out power for a night because we could not pay the bill. That was hard.! But, we all made it. It is so frustrating having bill collectors call u at all hours and know u don't have a penny to your name let alone to give them.~ We don't really have a lot of bills it is just that we were living on Mikes over time and now he is not getting it and it is making thing VERY tight. It also made Christmas very hard! That was really hard for me.~ It is so hard for me to get to a place where I can make every penny stretch out.
~Living paycheck to paycheck is not hard we have done that a lot but it has never been so tight. We used to have a little left over to go out to eat with or buy a little extra at the store!~ but now we r doing good to get what we need....I know what you are thinking~ Everyone is having money issues now. I know that a lot of people are money issues and I really feel for them I know how hard it is for us and we have a house cars power and water. How hard it would be if we didn't...and there are people out there who have lost these luxuries. I know it sounds like I am complaining and I truly am not I guess I am just venting....and saying that I am thankful for what we do have....I just pray that God will help us get through~ I know HE will work it all out in HIS time....

Life

I just have one question for you all?~ Why in heavens name does life have to be so very very hard!

....Working.....

I really don't think I was ever supposed to work a 40 hour work week. The last 4 months have been the hardest 4 months of my life! Having my kids leave for school with out me and then not being here when they get home...UGH that is hard. I know that people do it everyday but not me. I have always been home when they leave and get home. Also I really didn't like my job. I guess it was OK I did not love it like I thought I would.~ and after my evaluation which I did very poorly on I decided that during Christmas break I was going to "look" for another job. Not that I thought I would find one but, none the less I would put my application in and hope and pray that someone would want me!~ Then the Tuesday before Christmas I went to Walmart to get some food and I ran into someone who works out at fitness world and she said they had hired someone for the nursery. I thought to myself ugh I could have worked there during the day again! Then another one of my friends that works at fitness world called because her son wanted to play with Seth and Sloan. She told me how they still need someone for the nursery and that I should go talk to Alicia. So I did and guess what I am working at fitness world again.! No it is not a GREAT new job but I know what is expected of me and they are good at working with me when scheduling me. I am getting 30 hours and that is great I will be making what I made a crossroads because I don't have to pay for Sloan to go with me. That is a BIG PLUS!
I worked last night in the nursery and it felt really good to be back. I had been there for 4 years before I quit to take my other job. I didn't think I would go back but it is nice to have some place that will take you back...
I think I will just stay at fitness world for the rest of my work life. Yes I am sure I will get burned out on it but who doesn't get burned out on work. No I will not be able to take the summer off but really if I had to spend all summer at home with the kids I would go CRAZY....Really, I think I would. I believe that I will be happy over all at FW. Although, I will miss the people I worked with at crossroads, I think it is really for the best.And the best thing is I will only be gone 1 afternoon a week. SO, I can be here for my kids and see them more!

Hair.....UGG will I ever be happy?

Ok This is how I want my hair....I want the front sides below my ears but over all this is it! I love this hair cut and I think I would be happy with it! Any comments??? I want some one to comment PLEASE!!!!

Sick....

Last weekend I was starting to feel like I was getting sick and so I started taking zicam thinking that it would cure me and I would not get a cold....HA, But in turn I got a very bad cold! I don't ever remember when I have felt this bad it is so much worse then a regular cold. I am thinking that I have something else. I felt so sick on Friday I tried to get someone to come in for me but no one could....Saturday I was feeling better and thought I has turned the corner on the way to good health and then Sunday it was AWFUL!!! My stomach was upset and I could not hold my eyes open,I was dizzy, I slept all day,my whole body ached~ THANK GOODNESS someone went in to work for me today....I still don't feel well but I do fell a little better then yesterday. I am going to the doctor at 1 because I have to get better before we go to Alabama for Thanksgiving....I hope everything is OK and it is just a nasty virus.~

life just keeps going

Has a month really gone by? Can you believe that in 2 weeks it will be Thanksgiving! And then a month later Christmas! WOW this year has FLOWN by>>>>>
So I guess you are wondering what has been happening in my life...
Well Lets start with the youngest Sloan Balon... Yes the poor boy thought that was his real middle name! Can you believe that one. His is still going to Crossroads and I think he really enjoys it. He has made some good friends. He is still a little wild but we love him just the way he is!
On to Seth, he is doing really good in school he is a little spacier at times but he is really thriving in his new school. He has gone up a whole grade level in reading in 3 months and we are so proud of him for that he has just gotten his second report card and he is doing great! He is doing light comp. at church but he is not going to do it after Christmas....he says they get to loud.
OK now on to Savanah....She is doing great in school....Math is the only subject that she is really struggling in we are so very proud of her she was on drill team but stoped because she was having trouble with one of the other girls saying mean things to her....Her dad just had another baby girl and she just can not wait to go and see her new sister...She is turning in to such a beautiful woman I am so glad that she is my daughter...
Now I guess it is my turn to talk about me....I really don't like talking about myself but her goes...
I went into work about 3 weeks ago and Lori my boss told me that she was moving me to a different class...I am now working with 2 other ladies in the moring and 2 different ones in the afternoon. Witch really is hard for the most part I get along with all of them but one.... SHE drives me CRAZY and I do not believe that it is just me I think that she is driving everyone crazy.....the kids I am watching are 1 1/2 to 2 and all this lady cares about is cleaning up and doing the bulletin boards! UGH.....it makes me so mad she doesn't let them play with that many toys and makes them clean up and sit for 10minutes before the go to there next thing. OMG it just makes me want to scream! Ok now that that is out. I am looking forward to going to Alabama for Thanksgiving it will be a much need vacation. I also can not wait to see my family there it has been a year since I have seen them...
I have met some really nice people at work and over all I like my job I just wish that I didn't have to work so much so I could more time with the kiddos that is what I really miss and I know that they miss it tooo....

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This really sucks

So much happened this week at work and at home it is crazy how fast the weeks go by now that most of my day is spent at work.
I really don't like working at all I feel like I work all day and never see my kids and then when payday is here and it should be the BIG pay off...it is for next to nothing... With mike and I both working we are still struggling to pay the bills. This makes me so depressed because Christmas is coming and we have NOTHING at all to buy Christmas with. I don't know what to do. I feel like getting a second job but then I would really never see the kids. This is so AWFUL!!! Mike and I work so hard and for what to struggle to make ends meet. Mike is worried about getting laid off and I hate my job. I think I just hate the idea of working in general because I feel like I am neglecting my kids. Savannah and Seth both have field trips that they want me to go on BUT NO I can't I have to work.....I don't think i would mind if I didn't have to work every day. If I just worked like 12 hour shifts and then could spend some time with the kids when I was off.- But then what would I do with Sloan all day everyday...He would not have Crossroads to go to.
I really just want to scream......I feel like there is no way out for us if I don't work we r screwed and if I do work then we or I are screwed.....

New day~

It is October 3rd and I have been VERY depressed lately. I was very overwhelmed with teaching the 2-3year old. I decided to tell Lori (my boss) because Christie this awesome lady that I work with told me that they will not know if I don't tell them. I told them I wanted to be with the babies not itty ones but ones around 10-18 months. A week went buy not knowing what was going on and NOW I am in the dandelions class it is a class made up of 10 12-18 month old and I LOVE it I loving playing with babies all day (since I will not have any more) then when I get home to my kids I can handle them way better I think that dealing with kids close in age to mine was getting very hard on me. I would listen to kids whine all day and then come home and listen to kids whine all night it was enough to drive a person mad.
Yes I have to change diapers but none the less it is way easier to me to deal with the little ones. It is a whole different world over in the infant dept. I don't get to see Sloan as much as I would like but at least I didn't have to quit which i was thinking i would have to.... I am glad that I told someone I was so unhappy. ~
I went to the doc. on tuesday for my depression and my back pain it has been VERY bad latly since I have been picking up the little kids. I also think it is time to get it FIXED~! SO there is no more pain . I got X-Ray's done and it took for ever for the doc. to call me back about the results. But she finly did today she said that one of my vertibra is on top of the other on and she wanted to do an MRI . I asked if I could just do PT and the doc. said we could yes we could try that first. I don't know really what the plan is if the PT doesn't work I am guessing an MRI and see if anything elese is going on.

school.... part II

hello just an update on the school issue... I didn't read my last post but I am sure that I said I something about how much i disliked my school and teaching my 2 almost 3year old...But it is not that bad this week. Yes we have had a fit every day from one of my students and we have had accidents every once in a while but as a whole it has been bearable...A very wise man said that I need to talk to the Lord about it and I did and he has made it better. I hope anyway. I am still worried that i will get new students when one of mine leaves the end of this month and I will be back where I started and I also don't like working till 4.... 3:30 would be better for me cause then i could be home with my kids more. Don't get me wrong I would love to not work at all but if I have work I guess I have a pretty good job that will let me take off when the kids are home. As for the kiddo's they r doing good savy and seth r doing homework and sloan is in the tubby and mike is helping seth with homework...I am getting ready to go back to my new addition facebook!!!!
God Bless~

New Job...

OK so i have been teaching for 2going on three weeks now and I think I have finally got it now! My kids are the 2 1/2 year old that have not mastered going to the potty on the pot yet. Some of them are very good but still have accidents every once in a while others of them still going just about every time in there undies.....ugh...So needless to say my day goes by very fast. I really enjoy the people i work with and there are all very nice and very helpful! I am so blessed that I got this job and I have to keep pushing through the bad days to get to the good ones and I have to think positive!!!
Savanah likes her new school. She went to get her braces tightened today and she is compiling that her teeth hurt...
Seth LOVES his new teach and is school....
Sloan is not in Kindergarten this year....we decided to hold him back because he was still a little unsure of some of his letters and I have never herd anyone be upset because they held there kids back a year... He is going to "school" at crossroads with me. He is in the room right next to mine and I truly LOVE his teacher! She is AWESOME!!!:)
Mike stayed home sick today I think he has something like the flu. Can you believe that in the summer and he get the FLU all winter ling he goes with out one cold or illness and now he gets the flu.....
OK I am off to bed now I have a busy day tomorrow we have to make place mates and butterflies......o my what fun! ! !
God Bless
~N~

THANK YOU........THANK YOU.......THANK YOU..

Thank you to all of you who were praying for me to get the job at Crossroads.....We are in Louisville and had just gotten back to the hotel from the slugger mus. and I got the call that they want me~~~~I am so very grateful that they feel I am worthy of this teaching/caring position with the great kids I will get to work with! Thanks again....The Lord is awsome isn't he!
GOD BLESS!

PRAYING.......

SO I got up yesterday morning at 4:30am. Mike had set the alarm and didn't turn it off when he got up so it woke me and yes instead of going back to sleep I just stayed up....I went on my interview and as I was sitting there waiting there I was talking my self out of wanting the job. I even thought about leaving with out doing the interview. I stayed and did the interview and I am so glad that I did. It is the perfact job for me....I would be teaching little kids in the morning, I can enroll Sloan in the 5year old program, I can take my lunch to take him to school, and the best thing I can take the summer off if I want to.! Does this not sound like a perfact job for me! ~ If you know me you will say yes!!!! NOW I am just waiting to here from them to see if I got the job or not~>~>I am praying that I got it I really want it so bad!~ It doesn't pay that much but it is forty hours monday -friday. I will work when the kids are in school and I will be home by 430 so I will be home to help with home work! Can we say PERFECT.....So please help me pray that if this is the job that the LORD wants me to have that I get it. If not then I know that The Lord has another plan for me but doesn't this sound wonderful!!!!
God Bless~

Nervous...

I am so nervous about my interview this morning. I really don't know why.I know that the LORD will lead me to the right job, and it is not like I don't have a job. I can always sub at the school system and in the preschool. I just want to make some real money so I feel like I am helping out with the bills and the extras that we get each month. I always knew that when Sloan started school that would be my goal to get a good job or a better job. With a little more pay and a few more hours. Well I better go get ready for my interview~ I will let you know more later!
~N~

why worry

I was so worried all summer long that I would not have a job this fall so I when someone at the gym told me there was a position open working Monday,Tuesday,wed,and Friday I took it. I thought for sure it would be the only job I would be offered. I guess it goes back to the low self esteem that I have about myself. Well I was wrong.....
A couple of weeks ago I got a call from someone that said they were with the Warrick count school corp cafeteria. I thought it was something about free lunch for the big kids at school. But I was wrong. She was calling me for an interview. I went on the interview and got a sub. position for them making what i am now at the gym. I also still have the sub position at the preschool for the special needs children. (There might be a position with them in the pm class)
Today Crossroads (the church I go to) called me for an interview in there child care. I have no idea what they pay or what my duties will be but I think that this is just AWESOME how God is opening all these doors for me. I will continue to pray about the decision so that I will take Gods path for me. BUT WOW how awesome is he~ All we have to do is trust in him and that is so hard for me....Obviously, I took the job at the gym, and had to quit because the jobs in Newburgh are closer to home and will work better for everyone in my family....
I just wish that I could find a good a good paying job that has so stability to it~ I know I have to trust in him and it will be.....and that is what I think I will do this time! After all what happened the last time i got nervous.....So the moral of this little story is trust in the Heavenly father he does know all......