FAT~

I know it has been a few days since I have blogged and I know that you r over Michael's birthday. But I really don't know what to blog about~
Last night was "date night" and Mike and I got to go out by r selves and we took the kids to Allders gate so that they could play with there friends. Savanah said she didn't really want to go but I said she had to so that mike and I could be alone and the was the end of it~ She ended up having a great time and didn't want to leave when we left.
The only thing I can think about is my weight!~ Every time I have to go to Alabama that is all that I think about until I go! And when i am there it consumes me. You see my sisters and brother step-mom and dad r all very thin and we r all FAT! I know the LORD loves me this was so I too should Love me but it is so hard. I was reading a magazine this week that said that and it is so true it is a AWFUL cycle.....Feel bad-eat- feel bad for eating-eat-and around and around we go! This is so true. I just wish I could STOP. I am a addict but to food and how do u just stop eating?
I was going to try to lose weight for the wedding but then I rethought all that and decided against that, because that would mean I would have to have will power & we all know that I have NONE!
I will try to blog more~ this week.
Talk to u soon
God Bless